I got pregnant only a month and a half after having Jace; I was very sick every day and started working 50 hours a week, so I just didn't want to take on the load of what everyone else thought. I told the few that were super close to Danny and I. I didn't want to hear how we weren't ready for another baby and what was I thinking... It was all just noise in my head that I didn't need. I spent my pregnancy with Sky blocking out the noise and just trying to get through each day. Waking up at 5:30am to get ready for work, get Jace ready for the day and off we went. Jace was waking up all night the whole time. My daily routine included a bag to puke in because I couldn't keep any food down. And the medicine the doctor gave me knocked me out, so that wasn't an option. But every day I pushed myself because the things I was doing were truly important to my heart. To be a good mother. To be consistent and get through this roller coaster. Because these boys were more important than anything, or anyone. Including myself. Or that's how I was thinking. I was pushing way too hard. The day I almost passed out in the bathroom at the day care, I gave in. I couldn't take care of anyone if I didn't step back and take care of myself. So I sucked in my pride and stopped working. Really, I was working to pay for daycare as it was. I spent the days with Jace; wobbling around trying to keep food down. Enjoying our one on one time together. Still determined.
always know that you were meant to be.
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